Exactly three weeks left today, I know I should not be counting down the weeks/days since only thing it will do is increase my anxiety but that should give you my answer on whether I am "excited" to go to sweden :) ... by the way, from my last count for today, six different people has asked me that godforsaken question (not counting Bezaire's sarcasm :) ).
Eh,... yeah, I'm starting to feel some urgency that I should be spending more time with my family and friends. As time approaches, the more time I wish I had spent with my friends in the past few months. I've been working too much, 50-60 hours.. few times I've even broken the 75 hours in a week barrier just because I need to save up for Sweden.
Earlier today, I was talking to someone who grew up in Milton all of her life until 20 years old or something then she moved out to midwest for almost 15 years, then she finally moved back to milton, she had to get to know who her friends (same ones from 15 years ago) all over again. I feel that it's hard to imagine but after reflecting back on my highschool glory days, almost all of my closest classmates are or will be in different countries (Cheryl in USA, Lisa and Leigh in Canada, Megan in Kenya, Tara in Italy and of course myself in Sweden) and sometimes I wonder if we ALL will ever actually be able to sit down in same room at the same time again? I know for a fact that it hasn't happened since 1998 and it won't happen for another year at least.
Will it actually take 15 years? I hope not.
It's interesting that you don't realize how valuable the people around you are, family and friends, until it hits you right in the head just before you are leaving them for a long time. To those Rotary exchange students, I don't know if you actually felt that way but if you people ever did then I can finally sympathize with you all. I know it's wishful thinking to assume that everything is going to be the way it is right now a year later but the reality won't permit that.
I think after this year, my priorities on life will change somehow but exactly how? I don't have the answer to that just yet. As I continue wondering, the time ruthlessly continue to tick and tock.
It's safe to say that 2005-2006 will be the biggest turning point of my life. Let's see what's gonna happen.